When I look in the mirror all I see is big 'ol bags under my eyes and a double chin.
For some reason I miss the perfectly shaped eyebrows, the beautiful hazel eyes and the laugh lines born of lots of laughter
I see bags and chins.
And I hate them.
Yes, I know that hate is a very strong word but I do, I loathe them.
THEN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT JENI!
I can hear you screaming at me, I know, I know.
Last week I had a moment of motivation, it was a small moment, but a moment nonetheless.
I bought a pair of walking shoes last April, the day after Lauren got engaged. Somehow I lost them in the garage. After I had my small epiphany, I went to the garage, actually had to clean it a bit, but I found my walking shoes. Since then we have walked about 15 miles together. Not much, but it's something.
I have read some wonderful posts about New Years or post-baby weight loss goals. I admire these women immensely. What is wrong with me that I can't seem to catch the weight loss fever? Heaven knows I need it...but for some reason it feels like the golden ring far from my reach. I am not comfortable in my skin, I don't like buying clothes in the size jumbo but for some reason, I can not stick to a diet to save my life, (which is what a diet would probably do...)
That being said, I've been walking and trying to keep to a calorie controlled/well rounded diet. I'm writing everything down, reading labels, bought the "Calorie King" book which is my new Bible. The equation is really simple, calories in must be smaller than calories out. So far I have lost 4 pounds. Not even a drop in the bucket , is there something smaller? A molecule in the bucket?
I am walking around my neighborhood in the dark living in fear that some student will see me swinging my arms like a bad 60's movie robot. I am walking only 40 minutes each night right now, the first part is okay, the next 37 minutes is agony. My problem is my left knee which is arthritic and my right calf which cramps up on me after 1/2 mile every time I walk. Tonight both calves cramped; time for bananas (which, of course, are on the bad fruit list...).
I am inspired by your fitness and desire for healthy lifestyles. All these years I have not had a lick of motivation, and truthfully, I am not so deep that I delve into the introspection of my heart and soul and actually LOOK for inspiration and motivation. But I know it's the right thing to do. I am pushing 50 with a short stick, a very short stick and so I guess it's time.
There you have it, I have made my walking public knowledge!! Encourage me and hold me accountable. Who knows how long I'll last, but some is better than nothing right?
PS. Do you burn more or less calories if you limp?
For some reason I miss the perfectly shaped eyebrows, the beautiful hazel eyes and the laugh lines born of lots of laughter
I see bags and chins.
And I hate them.
Yes, I know that hate is a very strong word but I do, I loathe them.
THEN DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT JENI!
I can hear you screaming at me, I know, I know.
Last week I had a moment of motivation, it was a small moment, but a moment nonetheless.
I bought a pair of walking shoes last April, the day after Lauren got engaged. Somehow I lost them in the garage. After I had my small epiphany, I went to the garage, actually had to clean it a bit, but I found my walking shoes. Since then we have walked about 15 miles together. Not much, but it's something.
I have read some wonderful posts about New Years or post-baby weight loss goals. I admire these women immensely. What is wrong with me that I can't seem to catch the weight loss fever? Heaven knows I need it...but for some reason it feels like the golden ring far from my reach. I am not comfortable in my skin, I don't like buying clothes in the size jumbo but for some reason, I can not stick to a diet to save my life, (which is what a diet would probably do...)
That being said, I've been walking and trying to keep to a calorie controlled/well rounded diet. I'm writing everything down, reading labels, bought the "Calorie King" book which is my new Bible. The equation is really simple, calories in must be smaller than calories out. So far I have lost 4 pounds. Not even a drop in the bucket , is there something smaller? A molecule in the bucket?
I am walking around my neighborhood in the dark living in fear that some student will see me swinging my arms like a bad 60's movie robot. I am walking only 40 minutes each night right now, the first part is okay, the next 37 minutes is agony. My problem is my left knee which is arthritic and my right calf which cramps up on me after 1/2 mile every time I walk. Tonight both calves cramped; time for bananas (which, of course, are on the bad fruit list...).
I am inspired by your fitness and desire for healthy lifestyles. All these years I have not had a lick of motivation, and truthfully, I am not so deep that I delve into the introspection of my heart and soul and actually LOOK for inspiration and motivation. But I know it's the right thing to do. I am pushing 50 with a short stick, a very short stick and so I guess it's time.
There you have it, I have made my walking public knowledge!! Encourage me and hold me accountable. Who knows how long I'll last, but some is better than nothing right?
PS. Do you burn more or less calories if you limp?
25 comments:
First of all, 4 pounds is NOT a drop in the bucket, 4 lbs is AMAZING and a great start!
It is hard...but it feels good to know you are taking good care of yourself.
I am so proud of you and very happy for you. YOU CAN DO IT!
then next 37 minutes are torture.. oh you make me laugh..
good for you.. seriously.. I just went in for my yearly and was told I could stand to loose some lbs too.. big surprise.. but I hear you.. I know I need to.. it is just hard to really feel the motivation sometimes..
I am glad for you.. keep it up.. you can do it.. do you watch the biggest loser? I love that show.. if I could just put my ice cream bowl down and do some situps while I watch.. it might be good for me!
I have lost and gained the same 60 lbs. so many times I have whiplash. The truth is I am tired of failing at weight loss.
I jokingly say the I run a homeless shelter for lost weight, you lose it, I find it, take it in treat it right.
I don't see myself the way the mirror does. In my mind I am 40, no wrinkles, and haven't regained that 60 lbs.
The truth is I will be 52 next month, my cholesterol levels are upside down and I'm at serious risk for heart disease.
I hate being fat, hate the fact that I have 0 willpower, and I hate to exercise. I have arthritic feet, and so walking is not an option. Maybe swimming?
I feel your pain, we both want to live to raise our children, bake cookies with our grand kids and rock our greats.
Hang in there honey, I'm rooting for you.
You go girl!
You've got more inspiration than me! I hope you burn more calories when you limp! (bad right ankle here). Good luck on your progress!
4 pounds is amazing, Jeni!!!!!!! I am so proud of you, truly!!!
You made me laugh by saying things like, "the next 37 minutes are torture" and that you look like a, "bad 60's movie robot". You are so funny!!
Weight loss is so hard for me. I really am proud of you!!!!!
I hear ya girlfriend.
I have lost 25 lbs in the last year by working out. I try to keep my sugar/white flour intake real low (like once a week). But I don't count calories at all.
I hired a personal trainer who pushes me 2 days a week and we mostly do weight resistance training. I now have muscles under my fat and those muscles burn lots of calories. My knees/back/feet no longer hurt and I have much more stamina than I did before. She charges me $20 an hour and while that seems expensive (not really for a trainer) I figure I will have to pay for my health one way or another and this was makes me feel better.
I still have about 40 lbs to go and I figure it will take another year, but I feel so much better right now that I am willing to have it take that long. I encourage you to get a professional to help you. She can show you how to move so it doesn't hurt as much. And be picky - find someone you like.
I blogged about this here:http://robinblogz.blogspot.com/2008/03/this-is-cheryl.html
are you giving yourself a good stretch before the walk? really focus on those calves. stand on the edge of a stair with just the balls of your feet. slowly lower your body, heels first. this is a great stretch for the calves, and should help with those cramps.
i wish so bad i lived by you. i would walk with you every night. it's so much more fun if you have a partner.
you are one amazing woman. go rock your world.
I'm a lurker - jumping in - I'm a WW leader, lost 65 lbs. and have kept it off for 2 1/2 years. I know just how you feel - it took me 30 years to figure it out.
Here's my daily video blog if your interested in my take on health and fitness.
http://lanette.hopkinz.com/
by the way - I taught seminary for 6 years - Loved it!!
You are strong. You can do this. Take your time and give your self credit for what you accomplish. (Like the four pounds! That is HUGE. You should be proud!!!!)
P.S.Do you listen to music when you walk? Maybe a book on tape would help?
E-mail Andrea. She'll make you a great CD. I guarantee it!
Why can't we just all be Denae? THat's what I want to know. Size two and eating bags of mint oreos.
Good for you on the walking (not running, in case any of you misread her Facebook last week!)and especially good on the writing it down. Exercise is good, but it's all about the diet, baby.
Way to go! That is awesome. I think you, me, and my mom should walk a half-marathon together... preferably in Hawaii! You could totally do it. (I'll give you some time to train, though)
P.S. I think you're beautiful just the way you are.
4 lbs is great! And way to go for getting into the routine of exercising...that's always the hardest part for me!
I joined Weight Watchers after both of my kids were born, and had great success losing not only the pregnancy weight, and even another 30 more after that! I can't wait to join again after this baby comes! I absolutely love it.
One of my favorite quotes (which comes from a cartoon my son like to watch, of all things) is that "slow and steady wins the race!" Results WILL come! Good luck!
Um, yea, not a lot of inspiration here. Did you SEE my last post? Yea, you did, so you know.
Mmmmmm... cake.....
good job mom!! i'm proud.
4 pounds is good, it better than nothing right?? If i was there i would walk with you!!
4 pounds is a great start!! Keep it up, it's all worth it!
Jeni, I love you! I wish we could walk together! And 4 pounds is an awesome achievement!
I agree with the iPod suggestion. Get some really good music or audiobook. Time will fly.
Good for you! I may not be great at the diet thing, but exercise literally keeps me sane! You will feel awesome in a few weeks' time...
I agree with the iPod suggestion. Get some really good music or audiobook. Time will fly.
Good for you! I may not be great at the diet thing, but exercise literally keeps me sane! You will feel awesome in a few weeks' time...
CUTE BACKGROUND!!!
Jenibelle! That is awesome! Good for you. I wish I could drop 4 pounds in a week.
Hey I got your post and have been wanting to email you. We were in Anaheim/San Diego last week and just got back last night. So, now I can respond. I'd love to answer your camera questions.
When I was pregnant I used to get awful cramps, my doctor told me to take magnesium and that solved my problem completely. That might help...a whole lot more than bananas did for me. Ask your doctor how much you can take.
Also, my legs used to hurt and cramp when I started running/walking a lot. I went in an got REALLY good shoes and socks. We have a running store in town. They watched me run and decided I had been using shoes for proning (leaning to one side) but I wasn't proning when I ran. They got me the right shoes and that solved my problem within a week or so. Hang in there. That will go away before long.
When you come and visit we WILL walk! Good for you, you have inspired me!
I hate exercising but hate watching my diet even more. So I exercise (well, just started back up). Typically, it keeps me from pigging out all day but not always. I am not strong enough to count calories yet. However, you and Jessica may be motivating me to do so...
Wow, I am really enjoying your blog. Wish we were close enough to walk together, that would be cool. You keep it up. You will be amazed at how your body will cooperate.
Covert Bailey (in "Fit or Fat") talks something about how if we walk only fast enough that we can keep talking for 40 minutes looking off in the distance our bodies metabolism will adjust and start burning more calories.
It sounds like this is your time so Carpe Diem, My Dear!! Day after day, after day, after day, (or night hee hee). :o)
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