Today was the day I have dreaded for a while, probably the last 19 years at least.
"Hello to you, is this Jeni? This is Dr. Brand from Madison Memorial Hospital in Rexburg. I have your daughter here and she seems to have suffered a significant seizure."
My heart stopped for a moment and the panic I felt was off the chart. I hate epilepsy. I really hate it. It is like a really sneaky thief that just shows up from nowhere and robs you of peace of mind and moments of your time.
Lauren started having seizures in second grade. Hers are Partial/Complex seizures. She will be standing and talking and the next nano-second be on the floor. They are terrifying. They robbed her of swim team, they robbed her of certain friends and sleep overs, they robbed her of her entire Junior year of High school when she had one after another, missing 37 days of school in one semester. We thought she was doing well and now, BAM! "They're baaaaacccckkkk!"
The emotions I felt were typical, "you are there, I am here, you need me, I need to go, I don't care if a ticket is $480, she needs me to make things better, to 'handle' it. I NEED TO BE THERE WITH HER!!"
But guess what? She didn't need ME, she called HIM before she called me! Lauren very neatly untied my apron strings a little, and I didn't have a choice. The Dr. tried to take her phone and she sneaked a call to Skyler. Not ME, HIM. I guess the days of momma solving everything, making everything better are over. It was truly an "ah-ha" moment for me. As I told my friend MO about it, and said that is was a defining moment for us, and she gently, in her MO way, emailed me that
"it is a defining moment for Lauren and Skyler". I don't know if I'm grown up enough for this.
Later I talked to Skyler and he very sweetly said, "Don't worry, I'll take care of her." And you know, I didn't worry at all after that. She is going back on meds, having a EEG this week, had a bunch of tests run and will be getting to know a new neurologist. But she's going to be fine, Skyler's going to take care of her.
This picture was taken tonight, she looks pretty good for crying all day!
On another note, if I can take a moment to toot the horn for the Medic Alert Foundation.
Lolo has worn a bracelet from this organization since 4th grade. All her medical information is on file at their headquarters including medical and medicine information. Today when she fell, (luckily, coincidentally, she was already at the hospital for being short of breath so she seized right in front of the Dr.) The nurse immediately saw the bracelet and looked at it and they knew what to do. My Dad was a diabetic and wore one, it saved his life when he passed out in the WalMart parking lot, someone found him in his truck and when the ambulance came, they had a clue what to do. A co-worker of mine has one for her autisitic son, Thomas. When he got lost once, the people who found him looked at it and realized he was special and non-verbal. You can find out more about this life saving organization here.
One more thing...I know that blogging is true. That is my testimony today. When all this was happening I remembered sweet Lisa Marie and called her. She went over to Lauren's, took them Jamba Juice and gave her a mother's hug. I can not thank you enough my sweet new friend. It is such a comfort to know that a little blogging, a lunch, some chatting and I and my family have such a wonderful friend to help us when in need. Thank you for your kindness and offered generosity to my girl. I love you.
Now, she will be in Kansas City for a few days in May....anyone live close?
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